December 2009
41 posts
“14) I don’t know what to do anymore. Life seems like a series of infinite...”
– snowbird299
Just think..
What If… Every day was treated like a new beginning? Where grudges, bitterness, unforgiveness, and worries died the moment your head hit the pillow. And at the time you had awaken to a new morning your mind would be renewed, not lacking knowledge or wisdom from the past, but building on what has been made from prior situations and circumstances. Each person you’d come into contact with...
Note to self.
Look forward. Do you really want to make a hard turn again? Just look the fuck forward boy!
“Seriously, you could change it. It would be easier than breathing.”
– snowbird299
“Rule #1 ” Let the past stay in the past and never look back. Just never...”
– snowbird299
insomnia
7am.
Well I feel kind like in the movie “Grundhog Day” - has anyone seen it? Seems like it is getting an really bad habit of mine to be sleepless all night, at least half of it. I can’t sleep anyways so I guess writing a new blog is all that is left for me now.
Once more it was Aiprot time today, walked at the very first beginning of the runway and let the Airliners fly...
insomniac
3am.
Seems like this is my time to be more awake then anytime else of the day. Thanks to our great educational system I am able to be awake at this ridiculous time. Guess winter vacation is the appropriate term we usually use for that but whatever.I got through Christmas relative well. It wasn’t like the big thing but it hasn’t been that since I was a small child. Only really good...
It's too late to be a pessimist.
How many times have I been here before? 5, 10, 20 times? All I know for sure is that it still feels like it’s the first time. Christmas eve is what they call today. Hundreds of people walk trough the terminal - shouldn’t they be at home now? Shouldn’t I be at home right now? Footsteps, random noises,hectic, hope,fare well and the clicking sound from the departure board - I find...
“And the world around us won’t stop turning tonight,
I like , I like...”
– Keri Hillson
Time.
I’ve heared from this woman.
»She decided to to escape - take some time off and get away from this everyday shit she suffered everyday. She drove to the airport, the 10th destination on the departue board should be hers. She landed in Paris and Amsterdam. But she finally ended up on a small island in the Antilles. There she ran into an old man which originally was from Sweden and has...
Just thinking.
Snow,sunshine, freezing coldness and bright blue skies. The sun always makes me feel better, it is like an explosion of colours in this grey city. - I’m going to the airport today. Itchy feet again. Maybe I fly away today. Maybe.
The Rain day.
Silence, everywhere just silence. No one in the train. Only the rain drums from the window break trough it, the city goes under in the fog which covers everything in dark grey. The sun just took a day off. She left a Post-it saying that she will be back tomorrow. I don’t mind the rain.
“I whish I could explain. But I can’t.”
– snowbird299
Direct from my soul. →
“13) I just did something I wanted to do for such a long time. I feel so better...”
– snowbird299
Late night confession.
Well I know my latest blog post or quotes sound a little bit sad, emotional - depressive. I know that. Sure I write them. But well - I don’t know what happened in the last months. I used to live on the bright side of life. Seriously. No matter what happened I was standing tall. I was focused, motivated and ready to change the world.
Focus went to disruption, motivation went to tiredness and...
“13) No I know why I said I don’t want to stay in touch with you. You and...”
– snowbird299
“12) I hate to lie when friends ask me “how you are?” ‘cause I...”
“11) Another fucked up day in a fucked up world.”
– snowbird299
Attempt
I close my eyes. Fast changing pictures, a gentle breeze on my skin. My thoughts go far, far away to unknown places. My mind starts trippin’. Sun, beach, ocean, bright blue and fresh green. But then the train arrives at my final destination. Rain, coldness, big city grey. I have to get out. No beach today. Not today.
-snowbird299
“10) Pull yourself together silly kid, you know that it ain’t happen the...”
– snowbird299
my roadtrip
What a roadtrip stands for is hope. Hope that somehere, aynwher, is better than here. That somewhere on the road, I will turn into the person I want to be. I will turn into the person I belive I could be, that I am.
And we hit the reoad. You, and me, and our whole great nation. With high hopes and new expectations for the future.
I can not wait to sart the engine.
The Airport
The Airport, my place to get lost.
Always when I need a break, when I have itchy feet, or just want to clear my mind - I visit the airport. It is a lovely place, with so many different impressions and things to discover.
I love the atmosphere there he gives me, when I see the Terminal or the planes arrival or departing it always makes me want to jump on the plane and just fly away. I love to sit...
Disruption
Well once more I have a lot on my mind.
Lately I really felt down all the time - and even now I do so. I guess some people would call it depression but I don’t think so. Depression is not the way I feel it.
I am incapable to understand what is going on with me right now. I know my latest blogs all were like kind of emotional or sad but I guess that would be ‘cause I am so. I am torn...
OwlCity & Lights
I officially own now 2 hot tickets for the OwlCity and Lights Europe tour. Going to see them in Munich. I can’t wait!! 98 Days left.
BOX
At times I get discouraged with the “place” the world puts me. I don’t claim to be anything more than human. I just strive to be more Christ like in all I do. This doesn’t mean I’m perfect, that I’ve never doubted, or never sinned. It doesn’t mean I’ve lived a sheltered life of forced religion taught by my parents. It doesn’t mean I’ll judge others who have chosen to live a...
“I can’te belive how easily you can take the darkness away and fill the...”
– snwobrid299
“Now its all about the dollars
Impalas that bounce
havin cars and bitches on a...”
– Daz
“Just a few hours and there will be some air to breath - some space to get lost....”
– snowbird299
“9) Remember that time when I told you I was over you? It was a lie. You and I...”
“8) If I tell you a secret, will you promis to keep it? Keep it close to your...”
– snowbird299
“7) Tonight will bring clearness. I am scared as hell.”
– snowbird299